Well, this is becoming more and more like my diary. Whenever I have any sad stuffs, I will be here hahaha. Actually, nothing much..but i just feel that i lost my motivation again.. ): I don't want to study anymore. I don't want but of course I won't do it because firstly, my mum will kill me and secondly, they definitely won't allow me to drop out and lastly, now is sem 2.2 alrdy, just one more yaer and I will be fine... (: So, yah, no matter what, I guess I will still endure. So.. recently have alot of unhappy moments.. Like, my birthday, was suppose to like have a gathering with all my friends and celebrate together with my brother but then although it didn't go through what i exactly planned, but I am really grateful to those who celebrated for me :') - Shi Mi n, Jenny, Yuan Xiu, Qamarul, Jing Wen, Jeanete, Jia Jia, Bion, Sean and Delick.(: and Wan Ting, Yan Qi who celebrated for me earlier, then Cheryl and Zora for the present (: That was the up part, few days later was the down part. I think I should not post the down part out cause I have no idea how to start describing it. So, yeah. But, life still have to carry on right. Wanna work but I don't know if i can find one :( oh well..
Sometimes i really feel that are we a clique? why are we always hiding things among each other? why does something happen to someone, then we have to know through someone else. I admit, I might be wrong too because i also did that. Thats why now i can't blame anyone. I really don't know what to do anymore. I am not a good friend. I really don't know. I tried so hard, so hard being afraid to lose anyone but apparently, apparently, no one is afraid to lose me.
Why is life so scary, difficult to uderstand? Why is my life like this?
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