Just finished watching another hk show. haha. omg. I just realise life is full of drama mama. Always said that 人生如戏，戏如人生! hahahaha. omg, I am crazyyyy. Anyway, 2011 has passed! 2012 is here. Time to be a little emotional though I cry like shit just few minutes ago... hahaha.

So ya. Still remmember a year ago.? I was in 1B16, and I was also super upset about spliting class with my classmates. Yeah. which is now one of my cliques, ABC. (: Because we were all split into our modules. I was also sad that I cried on that day and a few other days. hahaha. So, I hope this time round, I will be less cry baby but I doubt so I guess. The thought of having to split up with my piggies, James, Jia Jun, Jacob, Xin Ting really make me damn sad. haha. okay I am nuts. People might be thinking, "class only what! still same course after all! same lecture also!" but have you all thought of it? There are a lot of things that only A CLASS can do it! All the things happened in the class, as a class can't be explained all the times when we meet. Though with whatsapp and all, it's possible but then yeah.. okay so hard to explain. But, I think everyone understands what I am trying to say ah. I ALWAYS SAID IT LOL!


James & JJ


Awkward much..? HHAHAHAH


The girls!!!


Yuan Xiu & Jenny!

The first day I met them, I remembered Yuan Xiu don't give me a good impression of her. Firstly, because she said she was a super junior fan hahaha. omg, really. i was like "omg..? what????" But, guess what! I myself like SJ now. HAHAHA. Mr simple and the korean songs. OMG. It is all because of her that I get to become a small fan now. Secondly, her typing! She still type like a small kid arh with the cuhs and all. hahhaa. But, now I have got used to it and don't mind at all! (: Then lastly, I swear she was freaking hyper. I damn scared. Is like, hello, first day of school??? Must you be so excited?? HAHAHAH. Really! I was damn scared and afraid of her???? So, I wasn't really fond of her. (not that like, friend like of course.) HAHAAH. Then Xin Ting was closer to her too. So, you know it's very HARD to have a five person clique. Sure will have 3-2. Just like nette, me & shi min then jing wen and jiajia. So yeah, very naturally, it was me, jenny and shi min. (: The first hard to hard heart to heart(can't believe I typed HARD-.-) talk I had with Jenny was during a rainy day.. sitting oustide a LT, think is LT19 then we talked about our past which is ex, secondary school blah blah while waiting for Shi Min to come out of the toilet. Haha. At that time, I realised Jenny has a lot of similitaries with me/us. Yup, to me I think she's really a good/great friend. Very happy to know her. (: Then I never had htht with yuan xiu before because I don't really know how to tell her all things like I did to SM/Jenny. But, the day we got closer (four of us) was that day we went YX's house and had the longest talk in my entire life. Swear we grew even closer. (: And in the whatsapp talks and everything. I was really tired to create one chat, (had one @ ABC) and I don't like the feeling. Not because I dont want to create a chat with them, is just that I can't leave the chat as and when I want, because I can't invite them in anymore if I leave.. So yeah, big responsibility? There are a lot, really, A LOT of times I felt damn shit, and feel like just leaving and talk to Rachael only. haha. But i can't. Can you feel the pressure? haahaaha. yeah. So, thank god, Yuan Xiu created on 27th September! (: But, the title was done by me. HEHE. WE ARE ALL PIGS. ^^ Love the girls alot. ALOTTTTTTTTTT! Always never fail to make me laugh.. :') Especially YX's blurness and Jenny's slowness. Guess they are all influence by me?? HAHHAHAAHA! I swear! ever since I am in poly, I am god damn blur+slow+chi damn bad. Seriously?? I don't know why either. -_-

Then, xin ting.. I love her too, but then sometimes I just feel that I am a bit bad to her. I can't help it either, if one side of me treat her damn good, then the other side of me gossip about her, I am such a two faced? People might say is growing up and I agree so I tried to treat her better already? Though like always fail leh.. :/ I don't know. But, I will try harder!!!! Next sem, different class will be better I hope? But, I just feel that maybe she shouldn't continue liking anymore. Don't you think is also tiring to like him when he shows nothing at all? LIKE NOTHING. If you don't like her, should just say what. You are leaving her in hanging and I really don't like this at all. I know, this is totally none of my business, but if I was Xin Ting, I don't even have the courage to continue to like you. Seriously. Not blaming you either but doubt you will read it but then whenever our topic is her, it will always end so I also don't know how to tell you about it.

Ah, well, nobody reads this blog either. (: hahaha. So, I can't tell Xin Ting how I feel also. Encouraging her like sounds sarcastic, asking her not to do but she will still do right..? Aiya. Love sucks.

Let's just continue.... So, next is......... my darling Shi Min!!



I must admit, there are sometimes I treat you like not good because there are some points I disagree too. Just that if I voice it out, I scare we will quarrel. Tired of all this, I rather just pretend it's alright because I am really scared to lose you. If next year we are in the same class, oh wait, not next year, next sem, yup, if next sem we managed to be in the SAME class again, I swear I will pop champagne uh. HAHAHA FREAKING LUCKY RIGHT?! OMG. IF QAM AND AVEN ALSO SAME CLASS, OMG I WILL BE LIKE FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHEHEE. WE WILL MAKE THE BEST TEAM EVERZ! :') Okay, I better pray hard then! :) Anyway!!! I am really thankful of all times that I have you in school/outside school to be there for me. :') Really hope that you will find someone better x10000 to be there for you all the times! hahaha. Although I think I am quite good(OKAY BHB MAX) HHAHA kidding. But, there are still a limit which I can do to care for you all. Afterall, I am not a guy also so yeah!! :/

Oh and those three guys! Let's start with James. I must say, James is really a good businessman eh. hahaha. The only bad thing is he don't reply to messages/whatsapp. Only reply if he needs something or whatever. Okay la. I am contradicting. I say until he damn bad. Okay, not really all the times or maybe is because he has a girlfriend so that's why he's like that. Can understand (: But, I am still thankful that I know him! hahaha. He brings laughter and all so it will be a damn pity if we are not in the same class anymore.. So, that's why really don't feel like changing class at all.. ):

Then Jacob, Jacob ah.. This guy arh. That day I was looking at his fb, (I AM NOT A STALKER!) I am just free and went to have a look. He look quite familiar..? Okay, maybe the ah beng look and all, but, I must say he quite handsome. Okay not quite, not bad looking. HAHAHA. Yeah, but I can see that he changed quite a lot.. From young to now, defintely can see that he is more matured now. Though sometimes he is still so childish??? LOL. Jenny & Shi Min once said that he is too relying on me.. But, I think there are some things I really want to do for my friends. Printing stuffs and all is a small thing. Really, I really don't mind doing to all my friends. I never had a chance to do that to my girls. That's because secondary school don't need print stuffs what. And drinks and all, nobody started to treat each other. But usually, with Cheryl/Zora/Wan Ting, I guess I will do that??? But doesn't really apply to the rest of the girls so yeah. And maybe Wen Jie abit?? Idk leh. So, since I have the chance, I really don't mind doing for all of them.. Even if they don't appreciate/ never say thank you, it's okay. Because I am happy even doing that for them. Sounds silly right, you can laugh at me or what but that's because I cannot find that in my family/relatives.. Everyone can do that to their cousins, aunts but me..? Haha.. Sigh. Okay let's say about that later.. So back to Jacob, still remember that day I was rushing like mad, then I forgot to wake him up and when I remmebered, it was 5 mins aways from our consultation time. I cried while calling him. Mad I guess. But yeah, I felt damn guilty and all, but they all said I don't have to. I know but still, I always forget things when I am in a rush. I really need a proper time manangement! And, the whatsapp chat in the holidays. hahaha. omg, miss it quite alot.. I accidentally delete it so was quite sad(no, not only his chat was gone, everyone's too.) so definitely sad la! But, now, I think its hard to get back to what it was before I guess. But, nonetheless, hope he finds a good gf that can be there for him all the times! :)

Lastly, JJ! (: Some of you might know about me and him. hahha. I never go school with anyone anymore because I am scared I am late all the times which I am. -_- But, it's him, he make the whole bus ride so comfortable, so looking forward to take bus everyday. Even if we have nothing to say in the morning, he with the usual earpiece and me with the usual pig personality which is to sleep but I really feel so comfortable with him maybe because I know there's someone to accompany me to school. I always wanted a great neighbour (like cheryl's) and better still if they had a son HAHAHA. Which means we can go school togeter but yet, I found him. This guy who lives three bus stops away, who is in the dream school I wanted to go in, who is also so tall and nice to rely on. But, fairlytales always end. no? There are still somethings I could not accept and all. So, why not be friends? Isn't it better? I won't lose him at the end and we still can maintain this friendship? hahaha.

I don't want to see a day where I can't talk to you anymore, I can't go school with you anymore. I really can't afford to lose a friend at all. So yeah. Rather just stay right here and don't move at all.. :')

I PRAY HARD NOBODY READ THIS AND TELL HIM AH. -_-

So...last topic! Which is my familyz! :) Shall do ABC, 7W and Amos they all next time! Or maybe tomorrow.. HAHA.

So yeah, the last one. It's 4.36am now. You can't ask me to ridiculously continue typing right. I love my family a lot. There are a lot of things I want to do to help them. But, I am not doing right at all.. Last year was a hell ride of coller roaster for me & them. We lost certain stuffs but we definitely gain more closer bonds with each other I guess. This year is gonna be different. I really need to adapt to it and learn how to deal with it. The feeling, really, I can't remember anymore.......please kill me... :'( Sighhhh. I can only relieve it in my dreams or remembering the last time I had it...

Time to brush my teeth and continue to do my work! (: That's all. Okay, this is a hell lot of emotions in it. hahahaha. Hopefully no one reads and that's all folks!
(:


P.S/ Don't have Jacob's photo -_- Go fb and see then!